I’m not psychologically stable. Maybe I should’ve been born a male. That is not to say that psychological instability and masculinity are correlated but somehow within the realm of being a female there are many rules which would cast such unstable persona as distorted, deviant, and maybe even insane. And I just can’t fit these standards, these feminine expectations.
I want to roam the streets at midnight all alone and not be judged.
I want to express my sexuality and not be looked down upon.
I want to work at a construction site and not be chastised.
I want to be a man.
Maybe they were fighting. That sperm with the X chromosome and the sperm with the Y chromosome. Struggling against all odds to reach my mother’s ovum. Maybe that Y was very close. Too close. But that X took one more step and then it was over.
Now I’m here with breasts instead of a penis. Now I’m here with expectations instead of aspirations. Now I’m here with restrictions instead of freedom. Overly presumptuous, I agree, for women all around the world are certain of their freedom but I’m not; for men all around the world also suffer from expectations and restrictions and I do.
I live in a cage. Am I? Maybe I am hallucinating. Maybe it’s been there for so long I’m beginning to doubt its existence, and mine.
Why didn’t He create us unisex? I don’t care how we’d reproduce then. All I care about is all the vomit reproducing right now.
Anyways, happy International Women’s Day.
God save us.